Three-toed Christians

So I was sitting here, bored, and browsing xangas when I think I finally had enough. I've read through all these xangas of people in my area, or people on my subscriptions. I began to get really upset while readign through them. Hypocrites. All of them are. I know I have no room to talk, but im gonna make room and im gonna talk.
I know were only human but damn. One post I hear about how great there life is and yada yada yada and then the next post is like " I was at church..." or "I was praying..." or w/e and then they continue with how God knew exactly what they needed or God really spoke to them. It kills me because my biggest problem is knowing that I'm unworthy for forgiveness, hence making it a little difficult for me to accept that I can be and AM forgiven. I know I've fucked up and I know im unworthy so I need to be humble. And until I become humble before him, how can I really be forgiven by him? Its not important for God to know exactly what I "NEED." It's important for ME to know what God wants from ME. Not what I want from him. They write posts about it in their blog's like its getting a allowance from your parents. I mean DAMN... someone DIED to give us this gift so shouldn't we be a little slower to just go up, take it, and walk back to the life thats behind us?
I know the things i say and whatnot are a little unorthodox but im a realist. On top of being a realist.... im a pessimist. I inadvertantly focus on the negative simply because... its part of me. I know from talking to other people my age and through searching my own mind that 90% of what they show is an act. Its funny too because... one of the girls that runs in these circles and talks about how great God is to her and whatnot, is the same girl that goes out with my friend who came up to me one day in idle chit chat and informed me of thier... sexual... endeavors. They met at church, she goes to a christian school, she runs in the christian groups, she comes to the alter calls, she buys the Jesus clothes and such.. and he informs me (in all honesty) that not more than a 3 days before he had his hands up her shirt. I mean... WHAT is that? Thats just one example. The hypocrisy of people that call themselves followers of Christ is appalling. Personally, I think that if Jesus just showed up one day and started from going house to house, hed start flipping tables in houses and churches across the nation. What have we become? We are supposedly followers of the One True God Jehovah, His son Jesus, and The Holy Spirit yet we know nothing more than rituals and stories out of a 2000 year old book.
Jesus is not our church. Jesus is not our pastor. Jesus is not our christian concerts with our church vans and matching christian shirts. Jesus is not merchandise. People will not find nor share Jesus in thier pews on Sunday. Sunday christians are nothign more than fools trying to assure themselves that heaven is waiting on them. Jesus is kid sitting at the lunch table all alone. Jesus is the lady sitting on a bench downtown surrounded by 3 plastic bags of clothes. Jesus IS NOT your youth group.
Its all fine and dandy to go to church and get the gospel and chill with your christian homies, but Sunday should not be about going somewhere to make yourself feel better about yourself. When you "give your heart to Jesus" your giving your life to a life of service. Being christian doesnt mean go to church on Sunday and be really nice to people the rest of the week.
I read the LEft Behind series and I think the books interpret the bible fairly well, but what it lacks in is the projection of the world. See, they say "millions" of people dissappearing at the rapture. No, I think not. I think its more like thousands of people. I think we will be sadly dissappointed at the rapture and the return of christ as very few people we know dissappear. Then further into the books... they talk about the mark of the beast being given to people and such. Sadly enough... I doubt there will be much resistance to that. If it buys them the new cd, some food, or gets them to a concert, people will get it. Most people will get it.
True Christians are the three-toed sloths of todays world. They're on the way out. Harder to find than a decent radio station.

Valentines Hell... I mean Day

Working at a retail store, I see the fruits that businesses reap from this "great" day. Its pathetic if you ask me. Guys desperately running through the stores buying flowers, candy and stuffed animals for thier females in an attempt to show them thier feelings or just to try to get a peice of ass. Its rather gross. A friend of mine over on xanga (www.xanga.com/KamaSutra) Talks a bit about marketing and whatnot of V-day.
So on this holiday, instead of buying a ton of crap for your female interest (or male depending on your flavor) stay home and chill. Watch some Howard Stern, some cartoon network, or pop in a good DVD. Thats what I'll be doing.