Girls- Wow heres a topic i could overload the web on. first off, does anyone realize how hard it is to find a good lookin christian girl that actually likes you? lol i dont know, but if anyone else does, let me know, and we shall go to dinner and share stories. lol. How do you tell if a girl honestly likes you? or if shed go out with you. because you can say almost any girl that is being nice to you is flirting, and i mean even then, every girl is different. where one girl acted like this, another may not. and your not just gonna come out and ask her..... cause thats just like 3rd grade aint it? well not quite... but like w/o any clue at all... just ask.... then she could be like, no im just tryin to be friendly.. and then think your a prick forever, and that would totally suck, and i mean most guys always have a chick they like but they dont know if she likes him, and the thoughts fester until he quits caring, or he finds out (these views arent directed at all females) Females are confusing. and you realize the mischevious nature of females? check out the story of pandoras box.... eve..... delilah..... my mom... i mean the list goes on forever... so so far we have mischevious, and confusing.. what else do we have? (this isnt meant to bash women, im just thinking.) if all these girls are always ending me up in trouble, pain, or messes of some sort.. why do i keep going after another one? i got wiped with jenny, went quite a bit before i got in that mess with jordan.. then right off the coattails of that i dove into brandie... and then 2 wks after that storm blew up i started with jaime... although i really wouldnt call what we had much of a relationship, it WAS one day short of a month of my life, not bein mean, just sayin.... so yea... i guess im a sucker... and in all honesty i liked all of them, but in each relationship somethin happened that hurt in some way... and from then i still liked them... but i just couldnt deal with it. Jenny sayin yes on sunday, and breakin up with me on tuesday, Jordan wanting to date andrea and me at the same time, brandie wanting to live with me or w/e she was doin, and then jaimie not sharing her true feelings, breaking up with me, and almost ignorin me... it all hurt.. and if those situations hadnt arisen, then i dont think the relationships would have ended..... but idk cause im not miss. cleo. also heres a pattern. Jordan and Brandie were both 19, and i broke up with them, jenny and jaime were both younger than me, and they broke up with me... is that a pattern worth watchin? But then the pattern has broken with the most recent one, Jessica. We kicked it for short of 2 months. The difference is she's almost 17. And i broke up with her. But i broke up with her for pretty much the same reason as brandie. She got too serious. Talkin about "You dont hug me enough" and "I only see you 5 times a week." Plus there was way too much gossip in that one. So once again i spend my long nights thinking about women, trying to make them make sense.
God- This is the topic bigger than the world wide web, and i could go longer on him than i could on females, and i know thats hard to believe. One thing that is hard to believe is how people can see all the signs, yet still deny. And what about that expedition up Ararat or w/e mountain noahs ark is on? yea, someones fundin this big hike up this mountain just for photos they say, no souveniers or nothin, cause they saw sattelite pix that look like it could be up there. The Trinity. I guess there are people right... Trinitatians, and Non-Trinitarians. Some people believe that God, Jesus, and the Holy Ghost are 3 dif. beings instead of different forms of the same. Ive always looked at it as 3 forms of matter. Solid- God, he is the rock, he is unbreakable, and he has been firm and reliable since the beginning of time. Liquid- Jesus, as water does in a glass, took the from of somethin else, man, and cleansed as water would. And Gas- The Ghost, invisible but still affecting, and gives power just like steam does. does that make any sense? or is this just middle of the night rambling? I wonder myself sometimes. Well there is my god thoughts for the night.
Friends- How do you tell true friends. I mean sure you can see if they would give thier life for you, but when they do that, then it pretty much doesnt count no more does it? lol cause i mean what kind of friend will they be dead? and you can trust thier word, but that will falter eventually. In the end everyone leaves you alone or hurts you at some time except for god, so just because you get in a fight dont mean they werent really your friend. Do you judge them on what they are willing to give up for you? or just how trustworthy they are? or do you do as you do with Jesus and just trust, not blindly, but without doubt? and how much should friendship be worth to you? i can understand giving up your life for a friend, and i would for my friends in 2 snaps of a bullwhip, but i mean morals and such. and how do you choose between friends? and then my final question is this... is it right to betray a friends trust for thier better good, or should you hold thier secret or whatnot no matter the cost...........?
Parents- Sometimes you wonder if they're sent from god, or from satan.... I can see the positive in the things they do... and have done.... but what about the negative? when do you draw the line in respecting your parents? the bible says respect thy parents and such, but what if you believe what your parents say goes against what god would want? This has been an internal battle of mine for the longest time... when should a child begin to expand thier boundaries? at what age does a child start the trip into adulthood? At the begining of what would be my 5th grade year, my parents sent me to live with my grandparents. I went through a hell there..... one that i wont indulge into, because it is one of the few thing that will bring me to my knees crying. But needless to say afterwards my parents came to get me, and then they apologized and whatever, and i forgave them, but the scar still remained, and it took a while for me to trust them again. I started to trust them about the beginning of 7th. Then at the end of 8th, i did some things that im not proud of, and when i was caught, my parents sent me to a boarding school, and once again, i went through some life changing things, and they pulled me out of there. I forgave them, but more scars came... and it took longer for me to begin trusting. I started trusting my mom more first, and so when my mom did some things that could have ruined our household, i sided with her for a time, but then there came a point in all this where she ditched me for her habit... and i got fed up. well some stuff went down because of my actions after that, and i was scarred again after that, and i forgave them, and even longer it took to completely trust them... and then recently, i felt betrayed by my own mother in a situation, and it hurt.. and just how much more do i put my trust in them? how much more am i expected to take? dont get me wrong, i love my parents, but seriously, when your a kid you learn that when you touch fire it hurts. you learn that by repeatedly doing it.... and eventually you dont do it anymore. I guess this is true with any people, but with parents being around the longest, they get this the most, plus this is about them, so yea. So is trusting your parents completely like putting your hand in the fire? if so, how long will it take before you realize not to do it again? or should you ever realize it?
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Yikes ... you gotta break these things up into separate subjects to make commenting easier.
Okay ... women ... that one is easy ... if a woman is interested in you she will make sure to get your attention.
She will spend $100 that she didn't have on a primitive 900# just to get a message through to you.
She will body slam members of your family to get into your house to see you.
She will fly down from Michigan when she barely knows you to come see you.
Don't worry about the women who say, "No". Very often you will see the most BIZARRE phenomenon -- you will ask a woman out and she will brush you off and, at your age, maybe a week later she will come around again. At my age they wait bloody seven years but that's another story. Women like to be chased. Don't hold it against them, most of them still handle the dating thing with their reptile brains I think
On the parents topic -- that one is way too much to try to get into in one comment, save for the core realization I have made after all these years.
My mother was big into the "nurture over nature" thing.
Yes, you CAN cause severe damage by the way you raise your children, but, generally, you're talking something along the lines of the Brenda Reimer case or beating your children with reeds twice daily for decades.
Aside from that, the genes play the most powerful role. We all come into this world with certain strengths and weaknesses. It's helpful of course if our parents can help us to find and develop those strengths. If not, we have to pretty much figure it out on our own.
Sometimes the grandparents thing works out -- just remember that, at the time, your mother must have been seriously convinced she was in danger of KILLING you because, although it's hard to appreciate it at the time, the UTTERLY most difficult thing a mother can do is give up her child. Most women don't have the courage to do it.
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